First off, welcome to by blog. I assume that you are here because you are either a Mormon yourself or know someone who is. Perhaps you have doubts or just find some of the beliefs to be a bit odd or confusing. Well you are not alone. Here you are welcome to vent your frustrations and hopefully find your own resolutions and find peace within yourself.
About MeI am an active Mormon. I attend church every week with my family and even attend the temple twice a month. At the time of this writing I currently have a calling as a minor member of the Bishopric. I have regular scripture study with my family and hold weekly family home evenings. Basically all the things I'm supposed to do to keep from falling away from the faith.
Oh and I'm an atheist.
Okay, so maybe you think that seems a bit odd and out of place, or maybe you don't. Either way that is my circumstance. There are a number of reasons why I still go to church and am a 'closet atheist' which I will be happy to expound on later, for now lets just put it down to family reasons.
I have no ill-will towards Christians or those of any faith. I'm not out to convert you to atheism, you are free to make that decision on your own but I'll be happy to share my conversion story with you. Unlike the pretended stance of the church I honestly believe that people should be free to make their own decisions. To put it briefly it was not a decision I made quickly but was about 15 years in the making. I have been off and on a devout believer in the church and God and fully understand why believers believe. As of this writing I have been an atheist for a little over a year now and I feel better about my decision each and every day.
So Why Blog?I have to thank my friend Mormon411 for encouraging me to start this up. I have been making comments on his blog and he made me realize that I have a lot that I want to say.
Coming to realize the church is false was hard. At the time of realization you have no knowledge of where you can turn for support, you feel angry, betrayed, and lost. You can't tell anyone you know because of the fear of rejection, judgement, and loss of friendship that would ensue. You are left wondering where you can turn to find someone with whom you can express your new found self and accept and understand you for who you are. I imagine that the fear and experience would be similar for anyone faced with the need to 'come out' with socially unexcepted beliefs and/or feelings. It can be a confusing and frightening time and I hope that not only will you find an outlet here but you can then in turn help and become a shoulder for others to lean on as well.
Live long and prosper,
Live long and prosper,